Of Life, Love, and Everything in Between
“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith
― Thomas Merton
For a long time, I was sick and slowly dying inside. Not physically, but just generally unwell. My mental health, my attitude, my thoughts on life were toxic. I was toxic. My soul was corrupt and there wasn’t anything I felt could have changed it. I put miles and miles on my heart and my mind, but I traveled nowhere.
I was closed off to experiences and the possibilities life offers. The possibilities which other people offer. I didn’t listen to anything or anyone around me and I painted myself into this little box. I didn’t stray from the comfort of my normal even though it was killing me inside. This box I built around myself was suffocating and it kept me from being free. It limited the possibilities of love, life, and joy.
But just as time passes, life changes. And so have I.
I used to say no to many of those possibilities. If certain events, spontaneous activities, trips or even others didn’t fall into this box I built for myself, I dismissed it. And even a couple of years ago, I told myself I would never do things again which hurt me in the past. These past experiences crept into the present. Especially when it came to wanting a relationship.
But that was the past—and I don’t live there anymore.
Now I live in the present. I don’t worry about the parts of life which may or may not occur. I enjoy the time spent doing whatever it is I’m doing. And it’s an incredible way to live.
Being open to everything that comes my way allows me to be free and in the moment. I enjoy these moments right here, right now. This doesn’t mean I say yes to everything, but my initial response is not always a no like it used to be.
Now, I’m reminded there are events every day which I may miss out on if I’m closed off. And most importantly, there are people who I may have never met.
Wherever you go, go with all your heart.
If I stay open to the possibilities, it lets me build stronger relationships and allows my vulnerability to flourish. But it also keeps me grounded. Because being open allows you to learn more about yourself, and you understand you may not have it all figured out.
It connects me to life and lets me appreciate everything and everyone. It connects me to those who I’m around and it makes me a better father and person. When you are open, it attracts incredible people into your life. And they want to stay in your life as much as you want them to stay.
Being open allows me to not be in fear of time. Because I now know the future is never guaranteed, and I can’t control it anyway. Why then, shall I close myself off to all that is possible? I shouldn’t. You shouldn’t.
So I will not confine myself to the box I previously built anymore. It’s been shattered and tossed out. I missed out on a lot of possibilities in life. But I can’t go back to that life now. It’s over. I’m building a new box.
However, this box has openings everywhere. It’s not confining. I can get out of it anytime I want. I can toss this one out too and build a new one if I desire. There is nothing holding me back from anything anymore. All possibilities exist.
Everything has changed now that I am open, and I’ve decided I can’t live any other way. It’s the best way for me to live my life. I won’t go back. This way of living has already provided me with many things I would have never thought possible. And it’s allowed me to meet someone with whom there are endless possibilities.
So I am open to whatever life brings. I don’t know what that is, and it really doesn’t matter. Because I’m finding peace with my path, both past and present. I live on openness, vulnerability, positivity, and love.
We should all live on love.
I keep my heart open for whatever happens. I will allow my heart to lead the way because I know it won’t get me lost. It will put me on the correct path towards a bright future.
A future full of life. Love. Happiness. Joy. Everything I want it to be. It’s all out there for me. For you. For us.
All because we are open to the possibilities.